Nothing to Write, Nothing to Say

I honestly have nothing to say. But I feel that I have gone too far without writing.
I think I have decided to take out my lip ring. It was fun while I had it, and I liked being different, but it's more hassle than it is worth, and it hinders me for public things, like jobs or visiting my kids from student teaching.
I started a new medicine on Friday. I often have to wonder if the side effects to a medicine make the end result worth it. My doctor told me the side effects should slow down after a week or so. I sure hope so. I must say though, that they are doing their job. My condition has gotten considerably better. But I can't sleep. It's weird. I do not feel tired. I feel like this could have helped during the past few weeks of school because I have so much more free time now. I'm getting about four hours of sleep a night, so you would think I would be beat...but really, I don't feel tired at all. It just sucks because I like to sleep. I want to sleep. It gets lonely sitting at home all day, then Randy comes home, at night he goes to bed and I'm all along again. Blech. I don't even have a car to go to the store or anything.
Another side effect is headaches. I can live with those. I got those before I went on these pills. But the other night I got my first migraine in years. And it was the worst one I have ever had. It hurt to put my head on the pillow, even! That was odd for me because my headaches and migraines respond to pressure usually. Then it hurt more to close my eyes than to keep them open! What is that?!? But the light hurt my eyes, so they hurt open too. Ah well. That seems to have started calming down...I hope.
Also, I'm nauseous all the time. ALWAYS. It keeps me from eating, so I guess that's a good thing, seeing as how I feel like I eat too much. I hope they calm down, we will see.

One thing that bothers me is that this medicine has made me look at other people differently. Not really in a totally bad way, but it makes me question something very dear to me. I don't want this to effect my friendships or relationships in a bad way. This medicine is supposed to help. It's obviously anti-depressants in case you haven't figured it out, dear reader. My biggest fear is that now that I am feeling better about myself and my life, I am starting to see the negative influences in my life and it is bothering me.
My friend needs help I think. The same kind I need. And I have been trying to convince them to seek it, but they won't. And now that I am trying to get my life straightened out and to have a positive outlook on things, they sometimes really bring me down. How do I help this? I can't try to make myself better and fix them too. I just can't. I'm only one person. Is this a normal thing for someone seeking help to realize? I don't want to get frustrated with them, but I can't help it. Sometimes they just have nothing upbeat or nice or even happy to say. MOST of the time. And it makes me sad because I don't think I can change that for them. And then I feel bad for being happy when they aren't.
Oh life and it's complexities.